The new me?...again...

I have had another "epiphany"...yet again.  So is it still called an epiphany or just me giving my head a shake.  Yet again.  Part of me is embarassed to be starting a blog and putting it all out there, the other part of me is extremely motivated by an amazing blog I read today - I should have been studying, but we all need a break right? Right.

This amazing and fellow Canadian is writing about her journey and dedication to fitness guru Tracy Anderson and her intriguing "Method."  I am intrigued.  http://tracyandersonmethod.com/2011/05/mastering-the-method-with-shannon/

I felt I could somewhat relate to this blogger and yet again found myself having the thought of holy s**t, you're STILL in the same spot you were one month ago, 1 year ago, 5 years ago.  Bitching about your weight!  Coming down from sugar highs...and lows.  Binging.  It's embarassing.  I have been fighthing this battle for way, way too long and have decided to blog and do something about it. 

My step dad complimented me this morning on my motivation and dedication to going to the gym 5 to 7 days a week at 5:00 am and I thought to myself...if he only knew how day in and day out it's a challenge for me to not gorge.  I have said this before...I'm so done with feeling this way...I want to change this time.  I need to change this time.  I feel like a food addict.  I hate that I get excited for weekends to see what "treats" I can indulge in, I hate that I can't eat one cookie without feeling...well, I have started, why stop now!  I hate that when my boyfriend leaves for extended periods of time for work I feel like I get to indulge for days and days.  What am I getting out of any of this! 

So here I go. 

 I'm obsessed with the show "The Last 10 Pounds" - the trainer from the show Tommy Europe wrote a book called "The 10-Pound Shread: From Flat to Fit in 4 Weeks" I have it in hand and am ready to do whatever Tommy says in order to shead these last 10 pounds (and then some) and get my f**king life back on track and not revolve around food!  I am so inspired by Shannon's blog (see above) and how she felt and wrote her blog helped her stay on track. 

Ok, I feel I have taken a long enough break from studying...back to the books for me and I will update tomorrow and give more info on "The 10-Pound Shread: From Flab to Fit in 4 Weeks."

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